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Amanda

Wednesday, May 30, 2012 ( 10:11 AM )

Meaning 'worthy of love' in Latin, it has recently become slang for 'the best sister in the whole wide world'.

Amanda is smart, beautiful, sarcastic, loving, helpful, and supportive. She gives her all in everything that she does, even if she doesn't know how to do it.

Known for giving great advice, being extremely protective of the ones she loves, saving the day on a regular basis, and corrupting the minds of young children.

She has fantastic taste in anything and everything(especially boys), and looks fantastic without even trying. It isn't fair.

Immune to criticism and bad weather, they can do anything with grace and perfection. She's almost too perfect. You could hate her if you didn't know her, but if you do, she's your best friend.

She's the biggest sweetheart you'll ever meet. She deserves a hug, just as long as you don't touch her hair. Or feet. If you do, she'll switch into a Bailey, and roundhouse kick your ass. Anyway, leave the hair alone.

Girl: Awww, look at what my sister gave me?
Friend: Gah! Your sister is such an Amanda. Can we trade?

Everybody wants an Amanda sister, but you can't have one. Mine

a woman who doesn't take shit from anyone, even her own parents. She does things her way when she wants where she wants how she wants with who she wants.

an extremly beautiful girl. very loveable . awsome kisser . nice curves , everything you want in a girl

Name for an amazing well-rounded wholesome girl. She loves to laugh and talk about things with you, and she'll always be there for you. If you hurt one of her friends, she'll be there to back you up and help you through it. If you have a problem, she'll help solve it. She is a wonderful person.

Friend: Amanda, I need help
Amanda: What's wrong?

Friend: Matt doesn't like me, and Jono's a d-bag!
Amanda: It'll work out...

A girl who is very unsure about who she really is. Amanda's are often unsure if what they do is for other people or purely for personal gain.

Amanda's need to experience things before they beleive them, and because of this, no matter how many times they are warned off something they wont listen and will do it anyway.
They have very strong emotions.
They often find decision making very difficult, and this means that they don't make very good pilots.
They are very loyal to people who give them the respect that all people deserve and don't often get.

Amanda is that girl that you let go away. She is that girl that brought you more happiness than you could expect from a person. But she spoiled you, and you took it for granted. And now you miss her; you know you do. But she's happier now without you, and all you can do now is be happy for her

LOL THIS MADE ME LAUGH

The Past

Tuesday, May 29, 2012 ( 8:30 AM )

Everyone has their own past. the things they've done, accomplished or even regret. For me, my past has been memorable yet regretful. There are things in the past I really wished I could have changed, or had never done. Until today, I still question what had made me do such things, or made such decisions. I really don't know. I guess this is what you call regrets. But of course there are things in the past that make me go, awwww, or grin just thinking about it. So yea, my mind often rewinds itself to the 'before this' days. The days when I was this, when I had this and had that and did this, and that, with them or him or her. Sometimes, its amazing and sometimes its depressing. The past can leave us with grins or tears. Depending on which you decide to look unto.

Personally, the past isn't all that bad. Its what makes me become a better person. Its the past that's the constant bell that rings when I come to the point of decision. They help me make my decisions and plans for the future. They help me think twice before doing something. I guess I'm grateful for that.

But now, at this very moment, I don't know why, I'm starting to ponder about this matter again. Even if in the past, I may have screwed up a couple of times, but I don't know why, it just seem to drive me to do it AGAIN. yes again. I very well know what the outcome of this is, Then why am I here pondering on what I should do, or whether or not I should do it? All my efforts of trying to be normal and forgive and forget might just go to waste just like that. I can honestly think of so much more negative outcomes then the positives. But why am I still leaning to the 'do it' side? But there's just something. that urge, that need to get the answer, the need to get the reason. I think that's what I truly want. Because, I don't think I can completely move one until I get it. But yea.. I'm still forcing myself to try to think rationally, but then there's this voice in my head that's saying. You need to know, what's the worse that could happen? It'd be over by then anyway? why not give it another chance? =.= (that's also what Qianru said) but I know, I've done my part before this, and its not up to me anymore. Its up to the big guy up there. =) and that's what I constantly remind myself. But hopefully, I'd just get over this sudden thought of mine and just try my best to be normal again. Hopefully, all this pays off.

Sometimes, somethings just can't be changed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL LIM CHERN LIANG

Saturday, May 12, 2012 ( 9:52 AM )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU! yes you. Daniel Lim, the awesomest koko in the world. Thank you so much for everything in the past! =) I know I've made you pissed and emo a couple of times and I'm really sorry.... Thank you so much for all the things that you've done for me and all the advice and talks you've given me. You truely are someone I can always count on even though I know I may not be the best person in the world right now.. but I just wanna thank you for everything =) I thank God for giving me such an amazing brother. You are an amazing person, musician and a person with big dreams. Hopefully you'll make those dreams come true and don't forget to tell me when they do =) Also, I will try my best to be a better mei mei aite =) HEEES And to be honest, I actually didn't remember today was your birthday until like 12.15 just now. SORRY. the better mei mei part shall start tomorrow. HAHA please forgive me. And i hope this makes up for it. HAHA again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU! God Bless You!

P.S. please bring the videosss... =(

Love,

Amanda (your very guilty sister)

What I found in my biology book today.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012 ( 3:28 AM )

Salutations Hui En,
If you're reading this, you'll probably know about my disappearance. I have decided to drop out of school and become a waitress at mcD. HAHA kidding. I have better ambitions. I work at Kopitiam now. I live in an illegally built apartment at Subang. It's not as bad as it sounds. Sometimes, if I'm lucky, my roommates bring home prostitutes so I have friends to accompany me while I watch the cooking channel. Kidding! I hate cooking. They're actually friendly and not as slutty as you think prostitutes are. They are human beings too! Also, I'm pregnant with Jared Leto ( 30 seconds to mars) child but I'm keeping it a secret, so HUSH HUSH! You can email me if you want.

Love,
Kexin the waitress

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