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A friend indeed, also a friend in need

Wednesday, September 7, 2011 ( 3:06 AM )

Hello lovelies=) This post is specially dedicated to a friend. A rather close one as a matter of fact. My friendship with this friend is more than just close I guess. I mean we laugh together, we share jokes together, we do a lot of things together as a matter of fact. But although in my mind, I felt like we were close and all and since we always do a lot of things together it never came across my mind that there were a lot of things behind those jokes, and laughter, and fake smiles. Although I knew that she wasn't the type that opens up to everything. Not only did I not ask or care. But i have neglected her. Previously, I have been constantly ranting to her about all the drama in my life and never actually got the chance to see or ask how SHE was doing. Everything seemed to just revolve around me most of the time. Although I felt like I wanted to share and tell her everything cause I know she would understand and help me open up and stuff, but I have forgotten that I am not the only one with problems. I was selfish and unaware of the people around me. If only I knew or even asked how she was, I would have known how much my problems my friend herself is facing. Although I don't know what she's going through as she doesn't speak out much. But from now onwards, I made a promise to myself that I would be more curious and aware of the people around me and not just focus on my problems. I'd lend a shoulder for her to cry on or a tissue to wipe her tears. I would try to be more caring towards her and make her feel better about herself and at least tell me what's going on. She seems like a strong person on the outside, but i know that deep down, she's as fragile a growing flower. I really want to apologise for my selfish-ness. I really hope I can catch up with things and soon she will just come out from her shell. I have been a bad friend and I hope I can make things right. Although she didn't say it out but I know. I realised it when I was through with all the guy drama that I have constantly been so uptight and naggy and annoying and stuff. And I realised when I lost a true friend I told most of my things to. But screw that. Im content that my friends have stayed by my side especially her. I really feel sorry and I hope that I could to something to make her feel better. And that is by starting to listen to her and be more curious.

Not only her. But all my other friends to. especially my friends from primary. I know, i have also neglected some of them this year. And thats only because I've been caught up with so many other people in my life that it seems as though they were just another group of people i turn to sometimes. I know its wrong. AND I AM REALLY SORRY. Although I don't know how I can make it up to you guys. But I will try to spend more time with you guys. I have been distant and away lately and I feel bad. Although I still have my dirty little secrets to myself. I will not fail to be there when ANY of my friends need me.=) because I know without you guys, I would not be who I am today. And yes i am a person that really cherishes friendship especially the ones who are really dear to me=)

So yea, thats probably all for now, and this is a song I'd like to dedicate to that dear friend of mine and all my other friends who i may have neglected. I'm sorry ;)

I LOVE YOU PEEPS=)

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